“I sometimes wake in the early morning & listen to the soft breathing of my children & I think to myself, this is one thing I will never regret & I carry that quiet with me all day long.”
Yesterday I said goodbye to my little girls. It was hard. “Mama no te vayas” are the words that fell upon me most frequently. Mommy don’t go away.
Being with them is one thing I know with all my heart that I will never regret. It was five months of living a thousand tiny moments, but each with great love. Teaching Dana to wash her underwear, letting Jesica Rubi cry, taking Mina to the mall, listening to Fatima’s stories, giving Alexa toothpaste, accepting Rosa Isela’s apologies, helping Lupita pronounce the ‘S’ sound, giving Yessenia piggy-back rides, dancing with Maria, changing Samantha’s diapers, painting Anahi’s toenails, reading Angela the Bible, braiding Emily’s hair, singing Lizbeth to sleep. Small, small, things. But somehow so significant.
I love the assurance that comes with having my hand grasped firmly in that of God’s. I know He lead me to that orphanage, so I can be sure I did what was right in His eyes, and I will never regret my time there. Now He is leading me to a new place, and I can be certain that this time will be beautiful as well.
“My beloved spoke and said to me, “Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, come with me” Song of Songs 2:10