“Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.” Isaiah 58:8
Week 9: Inner Healing
This week we were so blessed by the presence and teaching of Christy Scott, who by allowing her light to shine gives others the permission to shine theirs as well. (Akeelah & the Bee) She was ordained as a minister from F.I.R.E. school of ministry, has been a missionary for seventeen years, and is a very beautiful woman whose heart is see people have deep encounters with Jesus. And that is exactly what happened with many of us this week… = )
“Let us make a little heart that will fit perfectly inside our big hearts.”
It begins with Eden. (As I am learning.. all things do.) There in the garden every part of our being was satisfied, complete, we were home. And it was perfect. Until humanity chose themselves over God. Christy gave us an analogy of the fall from a vision that she’d had: “When satan said ‘Has God really said..?’ it was like a hammer that shattered God’s heart, and little bits like jewels flew everywhere and landed hidden in the mud, in the darkness.” God has been teaching me so much through Eden lately, especially the fact that His heart broke when humanity walked away from Him. This week we talked about why God made them leave Eden: “God asked Adam & Eve to leave the garden because He didn’t want them to live for all of eternity on Earth without intimacy with Him, with the burden of their sin. And when they left the garden… God created a plan of how to bring them back to Himself.” It’s beautiful, everything in the Bible is beautiful when we look at it knowing that God is Love, and that everything He does He does with Love. Even kicking Adam and Eve out of the garden.
When they left Eden they were also left with a longing, a longing to be known intimately like they had known God in the garden, a longing for home. And those longings are passed down through generations, all the way to us, if we let them. Exodus 20: 5-6 “for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.” Since the time that I became aware of generational curses I have struggled with understanding why God made things this way, but.. I have come to a place of peace, and more importantly… I know that these curses can be broken through prayer.
Prayer is the most important part of inner healing, as I learned this week. Christy talked about how from the time we are in the womb and all through our lives there are lies that are spoken over us. Everything from “I don’t want this baby.” to “You will never be good enough.” and whether or not we are aware of it these lies affect us, they hurt us, and we allow them to become part of how we perceive ourselves. But God is a healer. Each of us had an opportunity to pray individually with Christy, and through that time we were able to gain a deeper understanding of how we can pray with other people, to be instruments in their healing. Basically it’s all about asking God to reveal to us His Truth, for Him to show the hurting person when the root lie entered their life, and then to ask Him what HE was thinking, what HE was speaking over them at that time.
My time with Christy was beautiful because it was absolutely Jesus working through her, speaking to me. I came with the desire to break a soul tie, and in that time we prayed for something that I didn’t know I could pray for. I called the scattered pieces of my heart back to myself, pieces that I gave away, pieces I thought were forever gone. But I called them back to me and declared myself whole. God is so beautiful.
Christy’s teaching also echoed much of what God has been teaching me about Himself, about how much He loves me. That I am a gift God gave Himself, that He wants me to come away with Him and be exactly who I am, because that is what brings Him glory. To love him, and to be confident of my identity in that Love.
“If we don’t know who God is then we won’t know who we are and we won’t know where we belong.”
I’ve written only a little bit of how this week affected me personally, and I think I should also mention that we talked a lot about children and the lies that they believe and how their homes and their lives affect the way they view themselves and the way they build walls around their hearts that keep truth out. I know that I will be working with a lot of very hurt children in my life, and I feel so much more prepared in how to help them in their healing after this week. How to bring them home, back to Eden.
“The LORD will surely comfort Zion and will look with compassion on all her ruins; He will make her deserts like Eden, her wastelands like the garden of the LORD. Joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and the sound of singing.” Isaiah 51:3